Persecution Paranoia @ 被迫害妄想症

709 BERSIH rally just around the corner.

After all the mess in the past few weeks, I cannot stop myself from pondering and wondering about whether the mental conditions of our Bolehland's government and PDRM are really healthy and normal?

Please read through the following facts, let's together examine whether these are some indicative symptoms...

1. Some days after BERSIH called for 709 peaceful rally, police had arrested 30 PSM leaders and members who go around Malaysia to advertise and publicize this rally.

Because,

By having Che Guevara T-shirts or communism-related things, you ARE intended to "REVIVE COMMUNIST IDEOLOGY & WAGE WAR ON HIS HIGHNESS YDPA"!!!

I think police should raid PETALING STREET and all tourism spots. Do they ever realize how many hawkers are reviving communism by selling these T-shirts to tourists who trying to revive communism?! There are countless!

Even our premier was meeting the world's largest communist party leader months ago. They even had private talk! Is that consider waging war to His Highness Agung?

2. Then they announced BERSIH, T-shirts and YELLOWS are illegal.

Because,

BERSIH, T-Shirts and Yellow may threaten national security, and ultimately create chaos in the country..

So she is Osama bin Laden in disguise?

And the T-shirts are actually decepticons in disguise?!

Finally these yellows are actually biological weapons?!

Unbelievable!

3. All of a sudden,

Poems can threaten national security too! A respected and noble poet may bring more harm than a terrorist!

This old grandpa may threaten national security?! You think Rakyat is LuLu ar?

So government plans to ban their books and poems too? Close down all bookstores that sell related books?

4. Even worse,

A Korean intern student maybe a SPY!

Probably the government and police will also think that, these international supports for BERSIH and calls for release the arrested persons are some kinds of intervention into our internal affairs, or an effort to topple government?

5. On and off they had arrested about 200 peoples who involve in Illegal BERSIH movement.

Members of Parliament, members of State Assembly, members of local council, members of NGOs, common peoples... They are all threats to national security?

Why not just abolish parliament, state assembly and local council?! If all our representatives are criminals?

6. Finally they found something real scary.

Things being found in some bushes by the roadside indicate that BERSIH is actually kotor!!!

HELLO, there are knifes in every houses, there are parang every shops selling coconuts or watermelons, there are even more BERSIH T-shirts in YOUR BALAI POLIS!!!

7. Yet, these BERSIH guys whom they think maybe terrorists had seek audience with the Agung. They even have good and peaceful discussions!

However, after seeking audience with Agung, the police still decided to apply restriction order from court so that they cannot step into KL on 9th July. OUT OF WHAT REASON? Seriously don't know.

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It's suggested that the government and police to seek advice from Psychologist. Cause all of the above, are just like some symptoms of Persecution Paranoia..

Don't you think so?

The Sins of The Yellow

Our Home Minister & IGP just announced, that Yellow is now illegal in Bolehland! Therefore, those wearing yellow please take off your clothes. If you cannot do this, consider to stay away from Bolehland!

The announcement had set off some panic in the community, some celebrities have suffered for no reason, many of them started to complain:

The DigiMan is the first to be arrested. He has no idea at all, what crime does he committed, or who does he offended. The last thing he remember is he singing "I will follow you". That's it.

After seeing what happen to DigiMan, perhaps His Majesty YDPA starts reconsider about His Majesty's favourite colour?

A close friend of His Majesty, Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth has immediately summoned His Highness the Pope, to discuss about the issue. Of course they cannot simple give up the symbolic colour of the Royal Family.. So they decided to take the risk, Bolehland police cannot just arrest them, they believe.

And another friend of them is considering on changing her sir name. Just wondering whether this will cost RM1.8million?

But you see, the above are real powerful celebrities.. what above those who are not so powerful?

Tweety is worried.

Pikachu is crying.

Bumblebee is considering going back to Cybertron with Optimus..

But at least they can move, you see. Other innocent "yellows" can only beg and plead innocent so that they wont be arrested. Such as:






The most splendid thing happened during the chaos is this: one of them smart enough to hide the "yellow" inside so that he wont be caught.


Let's give him some warm applause!!! And good luck to all "yellows"!!!

All of the above are fictitious, any similarity happen in real life is purely coincidental.



The story behind this story is that:-

Frankly, we shouldn't have blamed the police for causing so many people into trouble. Because there are too many deadly sins committed by the "Yellow". One of the major one is that, you know, some of these yellow guys requested for Clean and Fair Election!!!

Stupid meh?! How can we have clean and fair election here?! If so, the government will be overthrown at no time! That is sinful!

winnable candidates? or winnable tactics?

Najib said, he wants winnable candidates.

Sounds good.

Sounds like he's going to get rid of those corrupted, rude, racist and brainless men, and replace with some real YBs. Sounds like. Because we knew, no matter how miserable the columnists had said about BN, they still have talented and kind-hearted candidates. Yes, they have.

But after the scandal sex video. After the SodomyII. After all these "you help me, I help you", "you do sui sui, I do sui sui", 1Malaysia dinner party, giftsss, moneysss, projectsss and etc...We can't help ourselves to ask: they want winnable tactics, or winnable candidates?

I can't agree more to KitSiang, Malaysia politics have reach its' new depth of character assassination, with this video thing. And, it's...boring.

To be frank, who cares about DSAI having sex with boys or girls or both?(Of course there are still peoples who care, I'm rare, perhaps) As long as he didn't use tax-payer money for that, as long that he can provide a vision and a good plan for the nation's future...does it matter? We are not choosing our boyfriend or husband, but a leader to lead the country. Didn't the same principal applied, when MCA central delegates voted for ChuaSL?

I just can't understand why don't just fight it -- vision to vision, 1Malaysia to XXXXXX, or tranfomasi to reformasi? Unless. That is just so UN-WINNABLE to certain parties.

We are supposingly moving forward for better democracy, not backwards. But we are moving backwards and downwards. aiyo.

BJ日记·遇见吾尔开希

我还记得，那天晚上遇见吾尔开希时的反应，是一声惨叫：啊~~~~~~！啊哈。不是，不是。不是被他发胖的样子吓到。而是当老板走进来通知说吾尔开希来了的时候，他其实已经就要离开……所以我们惨叫着跑出去。—————— 追他回来拍照。

然后，他们去吃夜宵。

我还记得那天是1月18日，因着刚好也有个朋友生日。我还记得我这么推掉了庆生的活动：对不起，我要去和吾尔开希吃夜宵。我还说：当然寿星公很重要，也比较帅，可是和吾尔开希吃夜宵搞不好一辈子就这么一次机会。

夜宵其实吃得很随性，大家聊得也很随性，但我很紧张。毕竟席间坐着的，都是亲身经历（吾尔开希）或亲眼见证（其他人）那一年天安门前轰轰烈烈的人。只有我，是通过文字和录像，模模糊糊地读懂那个年代的人。资历小了一大圈，只好战战兢兢。当然最后还是尽兴而归。

事隔一个多月，遗留的印象是，吾尔开希很健谈。说起话来的那股气势，还是和当年穿着病服和李鹏对呛时一样有型。嗯。没错，是真的很有型。他说的事情、想法让我做了许多联想，当下也写成了稿。

当然，我的联想不如当事人拥有的深度，毕竟历练有差。不过还是放在这里，当作一个纪念吧。

我们准备好，扛起民主的责任了吗？

某天晚上，有幸遇见六四学运的其中一位领袖，如果你还记得他 —— 吾尔开希。席上，听他谈民主，谈自由，谈政治……不亦乐乎。而他所理解的民主和自由，我想，值得我们借鉴。

譬如说，谈起中国政治，他大概这么形容：由于对政治现实感到无力，导致犬儒心态大行其道。于是，人们对经济千般关心，对政治不闻不问，任由专制政体任意而为。诶？这不是和大马一些人，因为觉得某党独大无法改变，进而政治冷感很相似吗？

再譬如说，提到台湾政治，他大概这么形容：因为对混乱无序感到厌恶，人们开始什么都反对，什么都怀疑，什么都生气，最后反而怀念旧时的威权。咦？这不是和大马一些人，因为对某党不争气感到失望，进而转投旧制的怀抱很相似吗？

308政治海啸让我们突然看见改变的曙光，闻到两线制的空气，先是雀跃不已，然后很快失望……原来，不是有了“民主”，就会有乌托邦。

可是，这能代表民主不是好东西吗？

很多时候，因为对民主有太多的幻想，所以我们对于民主转型过程中的阵痛，也特别容易感到愤怒和反弹。因此，吾尔开希才说，民主比威权不好，在于你我的肩头会特别沉重。面对王权或专制，我们可以将所有的不幸归咎于统治者；可是在民主制度下，我们必须为自己的选择不慎负上责任。

怎样负责任？思考，行动，然后切记不能让无力感战胜对制度的追求。

要追求健全的民主，选民不能投了票，就坐在家里摇脚等榴莲掉。毕竟政党和政客不一定会拿票感恩，拿钱办事。所以你我总得学会监督、批判，然后思考，如果这一届大选我们选得不好，下一届是不是能够把他换掉？

当然，很多人会说，换来换去不都是烂苹果吗？但即使是一堆烂苹果，你我也得学会从中挑出比较不烂的，并进一步思考，怎样的选择才能改变你我对现有的不满。选民不能失去的，是做决定和承担变化的勇气。

第十三届全国大选或许即将到来，你，准备好了吗？

此稿也投于《公正报》

对了。想认识吾尔开希的朋友，可以到他的部落格去。吾尔开希的部落格，题名为《吾尔开希的流亡笔记》，签名是“写给回家之后的我”。很浪漫，也很悲伤。从64之后开始流亡，他已经22年没有回家，没有踏上过他心系的祖国大陆，没有拥抱过生他的养他的爱他的以及他所爱的——父母。

BJ日记·彩虹与团结

团结队。彩虹联盟。

每一位政治领袖、每一支党内"团队"都可以为自己的队伍和理念，冠上各种堂而皇之的命名、称号，以方便竞选钓票。这是自然的。

可是。

团结的真谛，不在于队内的立场必须一致，而在于大家的理念迥异却有办法存异求同，一起勾画出远大高瞻的愿景。彩虹的真谛，也不在于队内的成员是否多元，而在于当来自不同背景的人马(颜色)凑在了一起，可以勾勒出和谐美丽的色谱。

两者其实殊途同归。

说的都是，你究竟有没有智慧处理及统合组织里的派系不同、意见分歧、人事纠纷、勾心斗角、明枪暗箭，等等等等……不管是选前还是选后。有，就是团结，也是彩虹。没有，就不是团结，也不会是彩虹。

没错啊。有人的地方就会有是非，会有派系，会有斗争……很正常嘛。就像太阳从东边起来，从西边下去一样正常。（尤其是在政坛，更不可能少得了。）问题就在于，面对这些意见不同的"异议分子"、或者玩弄手段的竞争对手，你采取什么样的方式和态度来面对，然后与其合作，共同迈向更大的格局，一个属于这个组织所有成员的共同愿景和利益。（尤其是在政坛，一位领袖更需要能够看到大格局。）

讲了这么长，其实我想说的是，这次的雪州行动党改选，从选前的抹黑攻击、拿督议题……到选后的情绪发泄、牢骚抱怨，其实都不太"好看"。

党内有斗争是正常的。但是，斗争到某种程度，让所有民众都清楚看见：不管民意基础多强，反对派的领袖似乎永远被排挤，而当权派的人马似乎永远不屑和一些人合作的时候，那就有点难看了。因为人民会得出一种结论：领导层没有用人的气度。政治耍手段也是正常的。但是，把出卖和背叛拿出来呼冤喊屈，试图让所有民众为你伸冤昭雪、打倒"坏人"的时候，也一样有点难看。因为人民会得出另一种结论：领袖没有处理斗争的智慧。

我想大家都懂，作为反对党或等待执政的替补政府，民主行动党领袖们真正要打倒的，不是党内的对手或异议分子，而是国阵。

所以，那些个别的冤屈、彼此的看不顺眼，麻烦留在党内解决，好吗？

BJ日记·关于伟光

第一次接触伟光的案件，是在国会。他的代表律师Ravi来到国会，向媒体陈述伟光的遭遇。侃侃而谈、七情上脸的他给我留下了深刻印象，可是伟光的故事没有。

既不是未成年，也不是不知情，一个运毒的年轻人有什么值得同情的？如果每个罪犯背后的可怜遭遇都要成为声援或宽赦的考量，我们的社会究竟要包容和原谅多少罪犯？我们还需要法律和刑罚吗？

那时候，对于死刑，我没有太多的反思。

贩毒者死，天经地义。从小课本里不都是这样教育我们的吗？还记得曾经遇到攫夺匪，当时我还希望这些残害社会、伤害别人的王八蛋早死早好呢！杨伟光固然可怜，但他运毒的行为不也害了很多人吗？如果他没有被捕，他会不会运第二次？第三次？第四次？

所以，为什么要救他？

然后，我放了一个长假。跑去台北和一堆思维刁钻的人日以继夜地讨论，死刑到底好不好。谈到了犯罪背后的复杂因素，谈到了冷漠社会是否需要对罪恶负责，谈到了用生命的代价是否真的能换来社会安定？而即便能够换到，那是一个“等价”的交换吗？

夺走生命，“期盼”换得社会的稳定，是一个“等价”的交换吗？

带着这样的疑问回来上班，老板恰好就下了指示说，你去跟一跟伟光的案子吧。虽然免不了有些“哎，马上又得加班赶工了”的小小抱怨，但我很庆幸，有这个采访机会。否则我无法想象，原来所谓“死囚”的家属，竟然平凡得如此真实。

专访伟光姐姐的时候，第一次面对镜头的她，把故事说得有点破碎。但是，伟光的姐姐表情很丰富。说到小时候兄弟姐妹被迫分散给亲戚抚养，说到小时候爸爸离开家庭抛弃他们，脸上是伤感和无奈。说到伟光被捉、被判刑、被老板利用，脸上是愤怒和生气。说到伟光入狱后慢慢变成另一个人，一直在对家人讲佛经，姐姐的脸上，是那种很夸张的不可思议。

而我最印象深刻的，是当她转述伟光的话，说伟光告诉她，那位叫伟光运毒的老板，家庭有多么幸福，夫妻有多么恩爱，孩子有多么乖巧时……从她的脸上，我可以看到伟光说这段话的时候，那充满向往和憧憬的神情。

伟光向往幸福，而这位老板，似乎让他看到了通往幸福的道路。姐姐说，伟光想要幸福的家庭啊。她说，他们这些家庭破裂的孩子，看到别人幸福，心里会很不舒服的。所以很多老板要伟光帮忙，他谁都不帮，偏偏就要帮这位家庭幸福的老板。可是，老板最后害了他。

我难过地在想，有没有人曾经教过伟光，幸福也有是非黑白之分？

然后认识伟光的妈妈。患有忧郁症的她，有点木讷、呆滞，但问起孩子们的年龄、名字，她却都记得清清楚楚。她不会读几个字，但读着伟光寄来的信件，她看得很仔细、很用心。她也许不懂也不明白到底发生了什么事，但她会挂念孩子，会问起伟光。这位母亲也许不够坚强，她也许没能保护好自己的孩子，但她还是一位母亲，一位会挂念孩子，会疼惜孩子，会为孩子的不幸而哭泣的母亲。

我一样禁不住难过地在想，当这位母亲的心智和坚毅被现实击溃的时候，当她保护孩子的羽翼被生活硬生生折断的时候，我们的社会是否曾经伸出援手？

我想我可以明白，为什么一些人很固执地非要救伟光不可。因为我们不是要救一个人，而是要让整个社会得到救赎。

想一想。当我们愤怒地在谴责运毒的年轻人，指着他们的鼻子骂他们是加害者的时候，我们有没有问过自己一些问题？例如说：我们的社会有没有去关注，那些活在社会边缘的弱势群体？我们有没有去正视，他们的贫穷、辍学、叛逆和不幸？我们有没有尝试帮忙，避免他们走上错误的道路，无助地去追寻他们自以为是的“幸福”？我们有没有想过，他们可能也是社会冷漠和无情的受害者？

我们其实没有。我们没有去想象别人的不幸，然后去舒缓他们的痛苦。但我们最后狠心决定，为了避免这些边缘人造成自己的不幸，我们夺走他们的性命吧！以儆效尤。

可是，夺走了一条又一条的性命后，我们的社会变得更美好了吗？也没有。

为什么要给生命第二次机会？为什么要给伟光第二次机会？

因为通过剥夺生命，我们的社会除了制造更多痛苦以外，并不会得到多少好处。伟光死了，毒品的问题不会解决。幕后的大老板一样可以哄骗和诱惑其他年轻人，为他们卖命。你以为他们会在乎牺牲几个人吗？伟光死了，社会的缺陷不会被弥补。贫困和破碎的家庭不会减少，辍学和叛逆的孩子不会不见。你以为社会问题会因为一条生命的牺牲而得到根治吗？

但伟光死了，有一个家庭会失去原本已经所剩无几的幸福。

那位在新加坡总统府前屈膝下跪、痛哭流涕的60岁的男人；那位肩膀瘦弱却要扛起沉重担子，年纪轻轻却要处理种种问题的20岁的妹妹；那位刚失去了丈夫，带着5个孩子又可能要失去弟弟的30岁的姐姐；那位挂念孩子却从来不懂发生什么事的妈妈；那位为生活折腰还要为弟弟奔波到声音嘶哑的哥哥…………这些平凡如你我的人们，还没有来得及从死刑的存在中看见美好的社会，就已经要经历失去亲人的痛苦。就这样，一个家庭的故事结束了。

然后呢？

坦白说。决定处死一个人，其实不需要什么勇气。

决定不处死一个人，决定用剥夺生命以外的方法来与罪恶抗战，才需要莫大的勇气。

我们的社会什么时候才会有这种勇气，去创造尊重生命和相信人性的价值？

大马财政陷入困境，谁的错？

我要问一个很肤浅、毫无前瞻性、对解决问题毫无帮助，而且明显是人在愤怒时才会问的任性问题。

好好的“一个马来西亚”，为什么会搞到这种：政府不削减津贴、不落实消费税、不合法化赌球、不提高交通罚款……就会步上希腊后尘，面临国家宣布破产的财政窘境？？？

请容许我呐喊：为什么？！？！

从小生活在一个不富有但得天独厚，不太公平但友族其实很友善，管理很差但天然和人力资源cover得回的国家里，我变得有点胆小。听到“破产”两个字，我会吓破胆。不知道有多少人和我一样。

首相署部长说，我国长年赤字。1998年，赤字高达50亿令吉。10年后，数字剧涨大约10倍，变成470亿令吉。债务数额更是直接就会吓死大象，是3,650亿令吉。执政党=马华公会拥有的媒体《星报》说，这笔债务相等于大马国内生产总值的54%。你辛苦工作一整年，一半收益要拿来还政府的债。

我们当然可以怨天怨地，怪神怪鬼，说那是97金融风暴的错，是07次贷危机的错。可是，如果以其他国家能够安稳复苏为借镜，来推翻这两个烂借口，我们还有什么答案可以解释我前面的肤浅问题？

想来想去，我只想到4个字：管理不当。

刚才说关键年份是1998年对吧？我们来看看那前后10年，我国如何挥霍。

先看前面10年。

90年代，大兴土木。许多MEGA PROJECTS如雨后春笋般应势而起。布城当数第一，有回本吗？我不知道。只知道这个国家行政中心，现在和诸葛孔明的空城计没差多远。除了高官、警察、公务员、媒体，和不得不去办公的人士，没看过多少人影。平民百姓没有去的必要，游客则嫌它地点偏远，交通又麻烦。就连那些没事找事做，要示威出风头的社运分子、激进人士，也不愿选择去布城示威。

说到大型计划，目前很红的砂拉越巴贡水坝当数第二。夺走了大片大片原住民的传统习俗地后，这个计划给全东马供应了多少成电力？给印尼文莱，又卖出多少兆瓦的电力？对不起，巴贡其实到现在都还没建好，其中一家承建商=森那美集团今天还刚刚公布相关大型计划带来超过10亿令吉的亏损。油棕种再多也cover不回。

越来越不红的大型计划，则还有多媒体超级走廊MSC、生物谷、柏华惹钢铁厂等等。诶，等等，走到今时今日，你有多久没有听到这几个马哈迪时代的专有名词了？别惭愧，不只是我们遗忘了它们，当初推动计划发展的政府也遗忘了它们。

其他的，双峰塔、吉隆坡塔、轻快铁、普腾汽车、HICOM工业区、各条高速大道等等，勉强幸存，苟延残喘。不过就是年年喊亏、年年要政府贴钱拯救，纳税人比较辛苦一点。

我的知识不够渊博，举例不够琳琅满目。但就算我不说，相信大家心里很清楚。哦，对了，还有最近很红然后突然沉默的巴生自贸区。特攻队，你们在哪里？

同样是90年代，还有私营化热潮。

私营化了多少家国营公司，“官联化”了多少家政府单位，我算不出来。这些林林种种的服务业，效率、业绩和盈利增加了多少，我也算不出来。可是我知道，家里的自来水一年比一年脏，钻石能量水一年比一年好赚。我跟你讲，这些滤水器生产商，如果去到隔壁那个据说有能力在1天内攻陷半个柔佛的小岛，会破产！可是在这里，他们赚到盆满钵满！就算常常制水的居銮，听说滤水器也是卖到乱。

还有我爸爸最讨厌的Indah Water。一年没看到它的服务车经过几次，账单却年年准时寄到。以及黄明志最讨厌的TNB，电费年年涨，突然停电突然爆电缆的意外次数也年年涨。顺便告诉你稻农们很TL的BERNAS，跟政府拿的津贴越来越多，开给稻农的收购价格越来越低。不是我讲的，是黄瑞林讲的。当然不要忘记广大驾车人士最不爽的大盗公司，大道收费一直涨价、涨价、涨价。不给涨是不是？去叫政府赔钱，换个方法，一样从纳税人口袋里掏钱。

赚钱的私营化计划有哪一些？我想不到，谁说出来听听。亏钱的私营化计划有哪一些？好像算不完。

大型计划亏损，私营化计划也亏损，我国财政不赤字，才是岂有此理。

再看后面10年。

不能潜水的潜水艇，47亿。战斗机失窃的引擎，30万。送太空人搭德士上太空吃ROTI CANAI，9,500万。给军人买鞋子，2,750万。买通以色列关联公司安排会见奥巴马，7,628万。巴生自贸区，46亿。诗巫补选，1,800万。乌雪补选，数千万？取消美景大桥，赔偿2.5亿？等等等等……

例子不胜枚举，大家记忆犹新，不必赘述。说到这里，不禁想重复一句废话：这样花钱法，我国财政不赤字，才是岂有此理！

发完了长篇大论的牢骚，最后还是要提提管理学的智慧：追究过错是无助于解决问题的。我相信这是真理，所以我们应该放眼未来，寻找解决方案。正如首相署部长所言：No Pain, No Gain。

因此，我赞成削减津贴。

不过，前提是，管理出这等烂账的国家领导层，好像也该一并撤换掉。

诗巫@天鹅城 - 不再温和

不再温和，不一定是坏事。

踏上诗巫土地的第一天，直到515当晚的行动党万人大集会前，一直不断地听人说：诗巫人是很温和、很优雅、很简单的。倒也没错。那里的店早早就关门，那里的车慢慢地行驶，那里的人悠闲地过活，那里的夜很快地万籁俱寂。有朋友说，诗巫还停留在308前。嗯。

直到选前之夜，直到投票日当晚，我大开眼界。

温和的天鹅不温和了。

投票日前夕，按照惯例都会举办的民联巨头演讲大会上，聚集了大约1万人。不要误会，这里不是乌雪。我们都明白西马的反风越吹越盛，很多的"中间偏左"分子在308后渐渐走向"深左"，所以乌雪的选前之夜，吸引很多外州的民众远道赶来，槟城、柔佛、马六甲、森美兰……好像还遇到登嘉楼的……制造了一场2万人的夸张大会。可是，真的不要误会，诗巫不是乌雪。这里不会有太多远道赶来的外州人士。除了助选团、镇暴队、NGOs和几只疯狂的三八小猫外，那些攒动的人头，都是诗巫人。

温和的1万名诗巫人随着演讲大笑、大喊、大力拍手，然后一直在雨中站着，站到雨停，站到午夜子点。这是诗巫吗？遇上一位身份保密的NGO人，他说，他走过东马许多地方，今晚的诗巫，很不寻常，令他感到意外。

令人意外的，何止选前之夜。

投票日当晚，天空下起倾盆大雨。我们想说到计票中心去凑热闹，以为大雨天冷冷清清，可以在附近的咖啡店喝杯砂拉越咖啡，慢慢地等。怎么知道，刚到Dewan Suarah，就看到一片伞山伞海（因为下雨嘛）人山人海。上千人包围了计票中心，撑着雨伞站在雨中，苦苦地等待成绩出炉。我去过的补选不多，计票中心外站满政党支持者的我见过，站满普通市民的我还是第一次见到。

不禁还要问，这是诗巫吗？怎么跟我道听途说回来的印象，截然不同？

遇到一位老师。他说，公务员不能参政、不能助选，他们也很无奈。但是，他和他的同事都很关心政治，很关心这场补选。他说，他没看过这么激动的诗巫。他说，政治牵动一切，他希望大马的政治可以越走越成熟。他说，已经厌倦了用钱买票，厌倦了人身攻击，厌倦了制造恐惧的手段。他问，什么时候我们才能像英国这样？政党能够以政策和纲领来较量，而不是以裸照和肛交来较量？

遇到一位年过半百的婶婶。她说，很关心这场补选啊，所以叫儿子载我来看。她说，我有投票，我希望他们不要玩臭。她说，我投了XXX，我很希望他能赢，我觉得他比较好。她说，这个是我的儿子，我也有叫他要关心政治。

遇到一位怒气冲冲的安娣。她说，我听说他们要玩臭，要改成绩，我很生气！我马上跑回家！不要看了。她说，每次我们辛辛苦苦投票，他们都要玩臭，下次我就不要投票了。她说，整天只会给钱给钱，然后玩臭。

遇到一位年轻小伙子。他说，我不是诗巫的选民啦，我是lanang的。他说，真的很可惜这次不能投票，只好来关心一下咯。他说，你从吉隆坡来的啊？我也在吉隆坡工作过，不过还是决定回来咯。他说，我想东马需要改变啦。

我看着这一张张陌生的脸孔，突然有些感动。因为我看到，大马人的政治意识正在觉醒。不再害怕关心政治，开始响往成熟的体制，在乎公平的制度多于临时的拨款，渐渐明白投票是公民的权利和义务……而我相信，这种醒觉，会渐渐传染开来。

我想，当政者如果还不明白人民要的是什么。恐怕很快就会无法再当政了。

当政和在野都应该以诗巫为诫。

不再温和的诗巫。

Where is PR leading us to?

The whole world seems to be overwhelmingly in pain and upset about Zaid's defeat. Except for One-Malaysia PM and BN supporters, of course.

In such pain, peoples start blaming. Saying it was a buy-election, saying PR's campaign team was sucked, saying DAP/PAS/PKR didn't give their full-out.. Some even blamed Malays and Indian voters for not supporting PR.

Despite all the reasons you can think of for PR's failure in Hulu Selangor, the most important thing which PR should reflect on and review is, where are they taking us or Malaysia to?

One undeniable fact is that, PR has no RIGHT strategy to counter Najib's One-Malaysia at this point of time. Yes, you can accuse Najib as a hypocrite, you can question his sincerity in implementing the gagasan, you can even list down hundreds of signs and facts showing that One-Malaysia is actually fake slogan. BUT. But, at least it set a target for BN, it gives Malaysians a vision, and it sketch a (fake?) future.

What about Pakatan Rakyat?

Besides "we will take over Putrajaya", "BN/Najib is hypocrite", "anti-ISA, anti-AUKU, anti-corruptions" and etc, what is the future of this country that you can promise to the Rakyat? Any visions you had provided to convince the rakyat that PR is the GOVERNMENT-IN-WAITING?

Only oppose to BN's wrong-doings and criticise on BN's slogan/gagasan, without providing an alternative vision, will not convince rakyat that you're prepared to takeover the ruling role. Pakatan Rakyat have to come out with ONE common share vision or reformasi plan i.e. a 论述/愿景/纲领 among 3parties, on how their are going to govern Malaysia if they win the majority, before GE13.

Not only to counter Najib's One-Malaysia, also to convince the rakyat that you're ready to rule.

Is it Ketuanan Rakyat? Malaysian's Malaysia? Islamic State? New Politics? Fairness and equality?

Whatever it is, tell us what exactly your reform is about? Tell us where are you leading Malaysia to? Mere objections and oppositions will make PR a forever opposition coalition. You wouldn't want that to happen right? Malaysians neither.

PR's defeat in Hulu Selangor is an opportunity. To make PR a better coalition, or to make it continue to split and fall, it's all in your hand, dear PR leaders.

Don't disappoint the nearly 50% votes who crossed the box beside PKR/DAP/PAS logo on the ballot paper. Just a little bit more effort to make it 55%.

It’s not about Ketuanan Melayu.

I just feel like I need to do it in non-Mandarin, and you know, I always feel sorry about my command of Malay Language. (English is not good as well, but at least better.)

I’m feeling sick. On PERKASA’s words and deeds, the keris, the “don’t talk shit!”, the “we (Malays) had sacrificed a lot” and etc. On Muhyddin’s declaration, saying that he is Malaysians second, even though he is the Deputy PM, the leader to all Malaysians. On the RETURN of the King, opps, sorry, it was the Return of Ahmad Ismail, the founder to Hermit Crab......Statement, and etc.

The greatest taboo I face now, is the upsurge of racism. I hate this stupid -ism, even more than Khir Toyo’s and Zakaria’s Palaces.

I remembered once Anwar had said, “nilai manusia bukan pada kulitnya”. I don’t believe in him personally, but I devoutly believe in his statement, as I believe it’s a principle that every Malaysians shall uphold tightly to.

Political parties, particularly UMNO and it’s friends and family (for examples, PERKASA), like to manipulate the ethnic issues. Ketuanan Melayu, hence become the most famous slogan ever in this BolehLand.

However, did you ever realize, it’s never about Ketuanan “Melayu”. It’s only about KETUANAN UMNO, or KETUANAN POWER.

Why?

Simply because the creation of this SLOGAN, is only to serve for ONE purpose, i.e. to ensure that BN in general, UMNO in specific, WILL NOT FALL. They want to consolidate their ruling power, they want their regime to be everlasting, and therefore they are juggling the peoples with all sorts of racial issues.

Ketuanan Melayu? Only to persuade, to brain-wash, to lobby Malay voters. 513? Kampung Medan? Only to intimidate, to frighten, to deter Non-Malay voters from voting opposition parties.

By fabricating and instilling racial sentiments, they can control over the votes, especially those who believe in ethnic politics. Malays believe only UMNO can protect their privileges and ketuanan, perhaps? Chinese and Indians believe only MCA and MIC can talk to Malays and fight for our own Community’s rights.

However, how efficient is it worked? I mean this model of politics, ruling by dividing the peoples? You tell me, what happen to Hindraf? You tell me, what happen to Chinese who eagerly and anxiously want to emigrate out from Malaysia? You tell me, what happen to poor Malays who still remain poor, while those named cronies earn big money? You tell me, what happen to Kelantan’s oil royalty? Is that Kelantanese not Malays, or just because the Malays don’t vote for UMNO, then “Ketuanan Melayu” that UMNO always uphold suddenly mute?

We can actually raise thousands of questions similar to the above.

Shouldn't we start to think and sketch, what kind of future we really need and want? To continue with current situation? That peoples from different races, keep doubting, disliking, or attacking each others? That papers and medias, keeping focusing and goreng (you-know-which) on racial issues?

I am tired of this. Let's live in harmony, can't we?

What's wrong with Chinese befriend with Indians? What's wrong with Malays in love with Chinese? What's wrong with Christians and Muslims and Buddhists sitting in one table doing chit-chatting about "Allah" issue? What's wrong with all that? I just can't understand...

(Actually we can live in harmony, and we did, we do, we will, when we put aside all the political manipulations, or we just ignore some extremist politicians...)

尊重

一位美丽的同事在上个星期做了两辑很棒的专题，其中一辑里有这么一句话：

“尊重，是跨越鸿沟的最佳桥梁。”

鼻头一酸。

是啊。种族的鸿沟、肤色的鸿沟、阶级的鸿沟、贫富的鸿沟，看似很宽、很深、很难跨越，殊不知，只要打从心底里懂得尊重，尊重彼此的不同、各自的需要、双方的感受，然后，再加入一点体谅，要跨越又有何难？

可是，在马来西亚，总是有人学不会尊重。

不尊重中央代表票选出来的署理总会长。
不尊重多数人民票选出来的霹雳州政府。
不尊重人命不尊重人权，可以半夜拷问，活着进去，死着出来。
不尊重自由不尊重言论，集会自由当非法聚会，普通民众当恐怖分子捉。
不尊重多语文教育的自由，总是叫嚣着单一源流教育。
不尊重人民要你管理国家的委托，而时时以为自己是官老爷，是国家的天，摆着架子要“臣民”感恩于你……

太多了，一时之间也写不完。

但我想问的是：没错，政治上没有是非多错，只有成王败寇；但是，难道普通人民如你我，心里就不会有一把价值判断的尺吗？我们是否被我们选出来的当权者尊重着，难道我们就没有感受了吗？

悼念507

人民选出来的代议士、议长
任由你
乱捉、乱推、
乱拖、乱吼、
乱乱扣上手铐。

这究竟是民主国？
还是警察国？

这究竟是人民是老板？
还是国阵是老板？

纳吉知错了？

纳吉今天（哦，其实是昨天）说，

“霹雳州议长西华古玛不能召开紧急州议会，因为那是不合法的。”

原因是？

“因为霹雳州问题已经带上法庭。我们必须等法庭裁决，确定霹雳州政府在宪法上是合法的；必须等法庭裁决，确定那三名州议员还是州议员，职位没有悬空。”

我看着星洲简讯愣了好几秒。按照这个讲法，纳吉承认了，国阵没有拥有霹雳州多数议席，国阵霹雳州政府也没有合法性。

那之前是谁大大声宣布国阵夺权成功的？是谁大大声叫人不要质疑国阵州政府的合法性的？等到人家召开紧急州议会才来狗急跳墙，哦，不，是人急讲真话。

这种自相矛盾和双重标准，如果是在辩论场上肯定给对方捉着打足3分钟，打完再多踹几脚，踹完再多开两枪……

可惜大马领袖都不敢辩论的。

霹雳州的宪政危机

霹雳州政局一夜变天。这边厢旧大臣还没有辞职，那边厢新大臣已经宣誓就任，造成州务大臣闹双胞。旧的政府还没解散，新的行政议员就已经宣誓上任，州政权一样双重天。曾担任我国联邦法院前首席大法官，而且声称自己尊重宪法和法治的霹雳州苏丹陛下，真的觉得局面演变成这样，没有问题吗？

可是我有问题。

第一，怎么确定国阵获得多数信任？3个议员退党成为独立人士，使到霹雳州国阵和民联的议席对垒形成28:28的暧昧局面。确实，纳吉成功拐带，哦，对不起，是3个议员良心发现，认为支持国阵更符合他们选区人民的意愿（虽然他们选区的选民发动示威抗议甚至丢鸡蛋），所以声言效忠（不是跳槽）国阵。可是，另一边厢，却流传出3名议员辞去州议员的公函。目前公函还没有正式获得法律宣判为有效抑或无效，因此3名议员是否还是议员，存在争议性。既然有争议性，为什么苏丹可以在法律还没有判决以前就认定这个议题毫无争议，国阵获得31票支持？非常吊诡。

第二，苏丹是否有权力凭自己的主观判决来决定哪个政党/阵线拥有多数议席并组织政府？我们的国家是君主立宪，不是君主越宪。宪法赋予苏丹委任州务大臣的权力，应该只有在三种情况下，一是原任州务大臣自己辞职，必须委任新的州务大臣。二是州议会通过对现有大臣的不信任动议，大臣必须辞职，苏丹可以委任新州务大臣。三是大选成绩/补选成绩/闪电大选成绩证明某个阵营获得人民多数委托，苏丹可以委任大臣。目前的情况是，既没有召开州议会，也没有通过人民投票，旧大臣更没有辞职，苏丹就直接委任新大臣。如果这样的先例一开，亲爱的苏丹陛下，是不是说以后政治将独立于人民委托？我们不用大选，不用州议会，我们只需要苏丹/元首见见两个阵营的人，就自己决定民意倾向何方？那还是民意民主吗？抑或已经是皇权统治？我们还需要维护宪法吗？

议员可以跳槽，政权可以变天。但是不应该是一个皇帝加一个垂帘听政的说了算……至少也该通过一些民主程序吧？

到底谁输了？

民联输了。

3个议员没有跳槽，但是转投国阵；一个原本跳过去民联的，又跳回国阵。霹雳州政权一夜变天。尼查要解散州议会。苏丹要他辞职，州秘书把他办公室搬空，警方不让他进去办公室。

他不要辞职。媒体说他违逆皇室，纳吉睬他都傻，新大臣照样宣誓。倪可敏说，我们还会再回来。卡巴星说，我们要起诉苏丹和新届州政府。

民联除了闹，除了骂，除了发动示威，除了带上法庭，就只能等，什么也做不了。

民联输了。看起来输了。

可是国阵赢了吗？

新届州政府宣誓就任这种普天同庆的日子，人民聚集在皇宫外大骂，对着官员官车喝倒彩，躺在路上阻挡官车前进，上网留言的句句都是谴责，警方还要发射催泪弹，逮捕民众。

说是说我们是民主的国家。一个政府宣誓上任却弄得如此狼狈不堪，跟那种不民主不发展的国家好像也没差多少。

到底谁才是输家？

纳吉当然可以躲在官邸里继续开怀地笑。但是，失去民意支持和拥戴，备受人民唾骂和谴责，看在国际社会的眼里象在看笑话，这样的国家领导人，他的民意基础在哪里？他的历史定位是什么？一次夺权，万世臭名。真是又可悲又可怜。

Happy National Day!

For the first time in my entire life, I felt like I was so close to what is named by NATIONAL UNITY. And for the first time in my entire life, I felt that our National Anthem is so beautiful.

It seems like we can still be very very proud of being Malaysians. Ha!

It was around 20,000 peoples. They gathered at the stadium. They waved Jalur Gemilang. They sang "Negaraku". Together. Some of them are Malays, some are Chinese, some are Indians, some are from other ethnics... Well, all of them are Malaysians. They clapped and cheered for every leaders who stepped forward to the stage and gave their speeches, regardless he's DAP or PKR or PAS, regardless he's Malay or Chinese or Indian.

There is something still imprinted in me: When Lim Kit Siang was giving his speech in Mandarin, the Malay guy behind me cheered like hell. I wondered if he understand what LKS said, but he just gave his full support. (How do I know it's 'full support'? You can measure the decibel unit of his voice.) Who said Malays anti-DAP? And who said Chinese anti-PAS? The Chinese also clapped like hell when K.J. from PAS was giving speech. Thus, I started to believe...

"Nilai manusia bukan pada warna kulitnya," said Anwar, our next premier. *wink*


Politics is an art. The true leader can scatch the future into a beautiful painting, which sometimes seems dreamy, but hey, dream is always the greatest force to push people to change. Otherwise, from where the plane was created?

Let's dare to dream, make changes, and together work for a better Malaysia!

Happy Malaysia Day! Selamat Hari Malaysia! 马来西亚日快乐！To all my fellows Malaysians! =D

PS: Also not forget to send a special thank to the Barisan National a.k.a UMNO, for they had unite the people...to against them! Haha! We shall give them a credit on this! >_<

Enough IS Enough!

*furious*

First RPK, then SinChew journalist, and followed by YB Teresa Kok.

So another Operasi Lalang huh? Then who is next?!

The culprit who tried to incite racial sentiments by allegedly saying that Chinese Malaysians are "squatters", is safe and sound. But those who are against racism, or who had reported the truth accordingly, had been detained without warrant.

My dearest government, if you decided to send all citizens who are against the tyranny to jail, then you have to arrest half of the Malaysia population using ISA. I wonder if Kamunting has enough rooms.

Come on! Don't try to fool and threaten the people again. Those old dirty tactics are disgusting!

I was once doubted that 916 is a proper and ethical move under democratic system. But I have now wishing for it to be implemented as soon as possible.

What can be worse than having a dictatorship that always misuse the police force to consolidate it's political power, rather to take care of the increasing crime rate? Robberies, rapes, murders, kidnaps etc. etc. have worried every mother and father, regardless he or she is a Malay, Indian or Chinese. Once we have a government who is infatuated with it's own power, no people can benefit from it.

They are having fun with all the political tricks and games. Then who is going to plan for our economy development? Who is concerning about how the lower class people live their daily life? The poor Malays will not have their standard of living improved, neither will the poor Chinese nor the marginalised Indians. Except for a few hundreds ringgit every 5 years, during GE. But this does not solve the root problem.

Enough is enough!

We need a government who cares about what the people need. Not what it's party or cronies or son-in-law want.

最令人炸到的选举布条

补选和UPSR?!一者是马，一者是牛，两者风马牛不相及！给它炸到。

可能最近蓝海策略盛行，公正党于是积极开拓潜力市场，拉拢18年后的未来选民。=)

看林冠英vs许子根

（多得一位在政党工作的美女朋友的邀请，才让我有幸踏入DBP观赏这一场辩论。实在感谢。）


对许子根留下好印象的第一次是在308当晚，果断而大度地承认大选失利，并承诺尽快移交政权，是君子之举。对许子根留下好印象的第二次是在820今晚，是国阵成员党里头第一个敢站出来辩论的党领袖，持的还是劣势立场，这叫有胆量。

辩论赛的辩题和内容，真的没有什么好说的。槟城土地舞弊案，注定了这是一场今朝政府对前朝政府开炮的辩论，一者愿打，一者愿挨，难得的是打人的没占多大的便宜，挨打的逃过了好多鞭子。

这场辩论下来，总觉得，林冠英并没有把立场的优势发挥得淋漓尽致，让许子根一再逃过严刑逼供。于是，整场辩论的焦点都集中在许子根会回答、能回答、敢回答的案例之上，林冠英一开始提出的一连串需要被解答的案例，后来都不了了之。真是可惜。林冠英政治演说式的舞台感是追过大选助选活动的人都熟悉的了，令人惊喜的反而是许子根的舞台感、节奏感、肢体语言和“扣帽子”的能力。好几次，许子根在林冠英猛烈的攻击中一些简单冷静的反攻，例如“你并没有回答我的问题”、“不要一直让我重复一样的答案”，似乎也让林冠英尴尬了好一下子。林冠英在这方面就逊色了些，许子根逃了好多问题也没有狠狠地踩过去。可惜，可惜。

话说回来，辩论的内容真的没什么好说的。

我想说的是，对于辩论爱好者如在下，这类型的活动越办越多，越办越活跃还真的是件好事。让我们的政治领袖走到舞台上去，展现他们的政治思维和理念，接受人民和公民社会的检验。我深深相信，这是让国家从一党独大过渡到真正的民主体制的必经过程。在这样的舞台上，林冠英不是必胜的，许子根也不是必败的。他们必须用他们的演说内容和舞台魅力，来说服人民。

我渴望，渴望透明、公开和有深度的辩论会成为马来西亚的政治常态。

Democracy, Human Rights & Equality

This is not a political article, just a brief reason why I am sleepless tonight.

Due to preparation for debate competition, I have had chances to meet with some peoples and get to know their views regarding Malaysia. There are CEOs of big corparates, leaders of political parties, as well as scholars.

You will never feel optimistic about Malaysia once you had heard what they said. If what about BN are lies, lies, and sucked lies; then what about Malaysia are problems, problems, and piles of problems.

Suddenly you feel like want to migrate.

But they stay. We stay.

We all agree that we do not like the current political situation in Malaysia, neither the economy development, nor the social circumstances. Yet we hope for change.

There are somethings that Malaysians, especially the youngsters should have started to do, i.e. to hold tight to some universal values, to understand, to fight for and to practice them.

Those are: democracy, human rights and equality.

Our country has so far had none of the above, or a defected one. Poor Malaysia, poor Malaysians.