没有如果

如果，你们可以再懂事一点。如果，你们可以再积极一点。如果，你们可以多花一点时间，多用一些脑力，多开一些嘴巴，多发表自己的意见和看法，不要怕对错。如果，你们愿意再多创造，再多努力。如果，你们都愿意主动领导队友，整合讨论，自觉监督筹备进展……如果，你们还愿意把队伍当队看待；如果，你们还愿意把当舞台当令人热血沸腾的奋斗目标看待……

那我该有多省心啊。

可是，这世界上到底还是没有如果啊。

每一件事情，都有它相应的代价。你想要得到哪一些，就得付出哪一些所需要的那一些。时间、精神、勇气、眼泪……I do not know, you may name it, anything.只是你还愿意付出吗？

我到底还是看蒙了双眼，不清楚了，辩论对你们来说究竟还剩下些什么？

负担？负担？负担？还有负担？

如果真的事已至此，那还有什么是我这个已退役辩手能够帮到你们的呢？一头热地撞了进来，不过是把热脸贴到了一堆冷屁股上面。竟要如此两相为难下去吗？

我喜欢辩论，仅因为我喜欢在摸索资料和理论的过程中增长了见识，喜欢在相互质疑和挑战的过程中磨砺了思考，也喜欢在创造讲法和爆破的过程中发现更多创意。这些都要是双向互动中才能创造出的氛围。我不喜欢单向的喂养、喂养、喂养。

我喜欢队伍，仅因为这里有很多很多臭味相投的人，有着同样的臭味。哦不，是同样的热诚，同样的刁钻，同样的欠扁思考模式，和同样的永远奋斗目标——永远的冠军。虽然，当然，还有一些叫做责任的东西。俗称：出来走的，总是要还的。

可是真要还，我更甘心还给那些真正地热爱辩论的他和她，真正地想要拿冠军的他和她……让我看到你们的用心和斗志，我就算是要呕心沥血地还，也是心甘情愿的。反之，就只能是还得呕心沥血，还得嘴巴里都是苦胆也不知道为了什么的那·种·绝·对·无·力·感。

没有如果。不需要如果。

只需要告诉我，你们到底想怎样？

又一年918

请给我坚强而快乐的心，再给我多一点点再多一点点的好运气。

其余，我会努力的。

哎呀，始终不能抗拒alexis的蛋糕啊……
一小片，算是满足自己的嘴馋。谢谢phin。:)

Undilah! Don't sleep anymore.

A gift from Pete Teo & Friends to all Malaysians in conjunction with 916 Malaysia Day 2011.



And I'm happy enough for being able to conduct an exclusive interview with the production team. Thanks to Pete Teo, Afdlin Shauki, Namewee, Benji, Albert, Fred and others.

Pete was talkative, every journalist would loves to interview people like him; Afdlin was humourous and funny, when he start talking, laughing never stop; Namewee was damn "dai sei"; and Benji was shy, hehe.

It was an enjoyable and wonderful experience. As the interview and special report was done right before my Birthday, I see it as a gift for myself. I'm happy and satisfied, really. :)


Specially thanks to weitee, for getting these peoples to give ntv7 the exclusive interview; thanks to boonkooi, kt and weiwei, for giving me 3min airtime each day to complete the task..

NTV7 Mandarin7 News Special Report on "undilah!",
Part 1:

http://www.ntv7.com.my/mandarin7_ch/special-report-ch/916_1316100552.html

Part 2:

http://www.ntv7.com.my/mandarin7_ch/special-report-ch/916_PART_2_1316167261.html

NTV7 Edition7 News Report on "undilah!",
http://www.ntv7.com.my/7edition/entertainment-en/New_Untitled_Article_1316143968.html

It was not my voice-over in the Edition Report. But I'm happy to help in drafting the story and chose the soundbite. :)

Bye, Harry Potter.

Time flies..

When I finished reading this, I felt heavy-hearted..

It was like.. 3 years ago..



Now..

When I done watching this, I felt lost. Whether you like it or not, it's time, we have to bid goodbye to Harry Potter..

A decade has come to its' end. It was the Decade of Harry Potter. It was our teenage memory..





Although we all know that HP movies are never as amazing as the books are. But who cares? It's always a must-watched!

Because only this will complete the ritual and ceremony.

Persecution Paranoia @ 被迫害妄想症

709 BERSIH rally just around the corner.

After all the mess in the past few weeks, I cannot stop myself from pondering and wondering about whether the mental conditions of our Bolehland's government and PDRM are really healthy and normal?

Please read through the following facts, let's together examine whether these are some indicative symptoms...

1. Some days after BERSIH called for 709 peaceful rally, police had arrested 30 PSM leaders and members who go around Malaysia to advertise and publicize this rally.

Because,

By having Che Guevara T-shirts or communism-related things, you ARE intended to "REVIVE COMMUNIST IDEOLOGY & WAGE WAR ON HIS HIGHNESS YDPA"!!!

I think police should raid PETALING STREET and all tourism spots. Do they ever realize how many hawkers are reviving communism by selling these T-shirts to tourists who trying to revive communism?! There are countless!

Even our premier was meeting the world's largest communist party leader months ago. They even had private talk! Is that consider waging war to His Highness Agung?

2. Then they announced BERSIH, T-shirts and YELLOWS are illegal.

Because,

BERSIH, T-Shirts and Yellow may threaten national security, and ultimately create chaos in the country..

So she is Osama bin Laden in disguise?

And the T-shirts are actually decepticons in disguise?!

Finally these yellows are actually biological weapons?!

Unbelievable!

3. All of a sudden,

Poems can threaten national security too! A respected and noble poet may bring more harm than a terrorist!

This old grandpa may threaten national security?! You think Rakyat is LuLu ar?

So government plans to ban their books and poems too? Close down all bookstores that sell related books?

4. Even worse,

A Korean intern student maybe a SPY!

Probably the government and police will also think that, these international supports for BERSIH and calls for release the arrested persons are some kinds of intervention into our internal affairs, or an effort to topple government?

5. On and off they had arrested about 200 peoples who involve in Illegal BERSIH movement.

Members of Parliament, members of State Assembly, members of local council, members of NGOs, common peoples... They are all threats to national security?

Why not just abolish parliament, state assembly and local council?! If all our representatives are criminals?

6. Finally they found something real scary.

Things being found in some bushes by the roadside indicate that BERSIH is actually kotor!!!

HELLO, there are knifes in every houses, there are parang every shops selling coconuts or watermelons, there are even more BERSIH T-shirts in YOUR BALAI POLIS!!!

7. Yet, these BERSIH guys whom they think maybe terrorists had seek audience with the Agung. They even have good and peaceful discussions!

However, after seeking audience with Agung, the police still decided to apply restriction order from court so that they cannot step into KL on 9th July. OUT OF WHAT REASON? Seriously don't know.

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It's suggested that the government and police to seek advice from Psychologist. Cause all of the above, are just like some symptoms of Persecution Paranoia..

Don't you think so?

The Sins of The Yellow

Our Home Minister & IGP just announced, that Yellow is now illegal in Bolehland! Therefore, those wearing yellow please take off your clothes. If you cannot do this, consider to stay away from Bolehland!

The announcement had set off some panic in the community, some celebrities have suffered for no reason, many of them started to complain:

The DigiMan is the first to be arrested. He has no idea at all, what crime does he committed, or who does he offended. The last thing he remember is he singing "I will follow you". That's it.

After seeing what happen to DigiMan, perhaps His Majesty YDPA starts reconsider about His Majesty's favourite colour?

A close friend of His Majesty, Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth has immediately summoned His Highness the Pope, to discuss about the issue. Of course they cannot simple give up the symbolic colour of the Royal Family.. So they decided to take the risk, Bolehland police cannot just arrest them, they believe.

And another friend of them is considering on changing her sir name. Just wondering whether this will cost RM1.8million?

But you see, the above are real powerful celebrities.. what above those who are not so powerful?

Tweety is worried.

Pikachu is crying.

Bumblebee is considering going back to Cybertron with Optimus..

But at least they can move, you see. Other innocent "yellows" can only beg and plead innocent so that they wont be arrested. Such as:






The most splendid thing happened during the chaos is this: one of them smart enough to hide the "yellow" inside so that he wont be caught.


Let's give him some warm applause!!! And good luck to all "yellows"!!!

All of the above are fictitious, any similarity happen in real life is purely coincidental.



The story behind this story is that:-

Frankly, we shouldn't have blamed the police for causing so many people into trouble. Because there are too many deadly sins committed by the "Yellow". One of the major one is that, you know, some of these yellow guys requested for Clean and Fair Election!!!

Stupid meh?! How can we have clean and fair election here?! If so, the government will be overthrown at no time! That is sinful!

winnable candidates? or winnable tactics?

Najib said, he wants winnable candidates.

Sounds good.

Sounds like he's going to get rid of those corrupted, rude, racist and brainless men, and replace with some real YBs. Sounds like. Because we knew, no matter how miserable the columnists had said about BN, they still have talented and kind-hearted candidates. Yes, they have.

But after the scandal sex video. After the SodomyII. After all these "you help me, I help you", "you do sui sui, I do sui sui", 1Malaysia dinner party, giftsss, moneysss, projectsss and etc...We can't help ourselves to ask: they want winnable tactics, or winnable candidates?

I can't agree more to KitSiang, Malaysia politics have reach its' new depth of character assassination, with this video thing. And, it's...boring.

To be frank, who cares about DSAI having sex with boys or girls or both?(Of course there are still peoples who care, I'm rare, perhaps) As long as he didn't use tax-payer money for that, as long that he can provide a vision and a good plan for the nation's future...does it matter? We are not choosing our boyfriend or husband, but a leader to lead the country. Didn't the same principal applied, when MCA central delegates voted for ChuaSL?

I just can't understand why don't just fight it -- vision to vision, 1Malaysia to XXXXXX, or tranfomasi to reformasi? Unless. That is just so UN-WINNABLE to certain parties.

We are supposingly moving forward for better democracy, not backwards. But we are moving backwards and downwards. aiyo.

BJ日记·遇见吾尔开希

我还记得，那天晚上遇见吾尔开希时的反应，是一声惨叫：啊~~~~~~！啊哈。不是，不是。不是被他发胖的样子吓到。而是当老板走进来通知说吾尔开希来了的时候，他其实已经就要离开……所以我们惨叫着跑出去。—————— 追他回来拍照。

然后，他们去吃夜宵。

我还记得那天是1月18日，因着刚好也有个朋友生日。我还记得我这么推掉了庆生的活动：对不起，我要去和吾尔开希吃夜宵。我还说：当然寿星公很重要，也比较帅，可是和吾尔开希吃夜宵搞不好一辈子就这么一次机会。

夜宵其实吃得很随性，大家聊得也很随性，但我很紧张。毕竟席间坐着的，都是亲身经历（吾尔开希）或亲眼见证（其他人）那一年天安门前轰轰烈烈的人。只有我，是通过文字和录像，模模糊糊地读懂那个年代的人。资历小了一大圈，只好战战兢兢。当然最后还是尽兴而归。

事隔一个多月，遗留的印象是，吾尔开希很健谈。说起话来的那股气势，还是和当年穿着病服和李鹏对呛时一样有型。嗯。没错，是真的很有型。他说的事情、想法让我做了许多联想，当下也写成了稿。

当然，我的联想不如当事人拥有的深度，毕竟历练有差。不过还是放在这里，当作一个纪念吧。

我们准备好，扛起民主的责任了吗？

某天晚上，有幸遇见六四学运的其中一位领袖，如果你还记得他 —— 吾尔开希。席上，听他谈民主，谈自由，谈政治……不亦乐乎。而他所理解的民主和自由，我想，值得我们借鉴。

譬如说，谈起中国政治，他大概这么形容：由于对政治现实感到无力，导致犬儒心态大行其道。于是，人们对经济千般关心，对政治不闻不问，任由专制政体任意而为。诶？这不是和大马一些人，因为觉得某党独大无法改变，进而政治冷感很相似吗？

再譬如说，提到台湾政治，他大概这么形容：因为对混乱无序感到厌恶，人们开始什么都反对，什么都怀疑，什么都生气，最后反而怀念旧时的威权。咦？这不是和大马一些人，因为对某党不争气感到失望，进而转投旧制的怀抱很相似吗？

308政治海啸让我们突然看见改变的曙光，闻到两线制的空气，先是雀跃不已，然后很快失望……原来，不是有了“民主”，就会有乌托邦。

可是，这能代表民主不是好东西吗？

很多时候，因为对民主有太多的幻想，所以我们对于民主转型过程中的阵痛，也特别容易感到愤怒和反弹。因此，吾尔开希才说，民主比威权不好，在于你我的肩头会特别沉重。面对王权或专制，我们可以将所有的不幸归咎于统治者；可是在民主制度下，我们必须为自己的选择不慎负上责任。

怎样负责任？思考，行动，然后切记不能让无力感战胜对制度的追求。

要追求健全的民主，选民不能投了票，就坐在家里摇脚等榴莲掉。毕竟政党和政客不一定会拿票感恩，拿钱办事。所以你我总得学会监督、批判，然后思考，如果这一届大选我们选得不好，下一届是不是能够把他换掉？

当然，很多人会说，换来换去不都是烂苹果吗？但即使是一堆烂苹果，你我也得学会从中挑出比较不烂的，并进一步思考，怎样的选择才能改变你我对现有的不满。选民不能失去的，是做决定和承担变化的勇气。

第十三届全国大选或许即将到来，你，准备好了吗？

此稿也投于《公正报》

对了。想认识吾尔开希的朋友，可以到他的部落格去。吾尔开希的部落格，题名为《吾尔开希的流亡笔记》，签名是“写给回家之后的我”。很浪漫，也很悲伤。从64之后开始流亡，他已经22年没有回家，没有踏上过他心系的祖国大陆，没有拥抱过生他的养他的爱他的以及他所爱的——父母。

是时候回到柴米油盐酱醋茶里了。

在上一篇博，和这一篇博之间，飞了两个地方：柬埔寨，和台北。经历了两件事情：瘦了一点，又胖了一点。

瘦的原因不是因着柬埔寨的食物bo ho chiak，而是因着运动量太大。胖的原因不必多说，去过台北的人都懂，凭着台湾地方特色小吃的种类之琳琅满目、口味之五花八门、诱惑力之无从抗拒，绝对可以称之“罪恶之岛”。当然，夹在两次飞行中间的那一场农历新年，也有份贡献“胖了一点”这件事情。

然后，终于，静了下来。

一直在空中漂浮玩耍的心，也沉着了下来。

刚想说，终于可以好好坐下来，重新整理思绪、捡拾心情、写写游记，认认真真地吹响梦想再度启航的号角之前…………………………………………………………病魔找上门了。干！（啊！转了台北一圈，竟然受到某人和某人的影响！）

远了远了，回来回来。

我想说的是，写了《梦想启航》后，努力没有启航，玩耍的孩子心却绕了地球一圈回来真的是很不应该的事。

不过这样也好。

至少未来一年再也没有积蓄去玩耍了。至少现在我被迫努力去思考未来，做好当下了。

好吧。就这样吧。

梦想启航

这张史诺比，我爱管它叫《梦想启航》。

我想你也知道，小史总爱戴上骷髅帽，穿上护目镜，系上长长的围巾坐在他红色小屋的屋顶上，梦想自己就是一战时期的王牌飞行员……在枪林弹雨中穿梭，克敌制胜。尤其是，那令他讨厌的德国红色男爵。

这就是史诺比，人们称他为：具有无穷想象力和超伟大梦想的小猎犬。

哎呀。2011新年伊始，就让小史当我第一篇部落格的主角，露露相吧。顺便祝福我亲爱的朋友们……有人刚牵手，有人刚换工，有人刚毕业，有人刚求婚成功，有人刚小有成就，有人刚转换跑道，有人面对人生抉择，有人正在找寻梦想……都祝你们：梦想启航，幸福满满。

也顺便勉励自己。不管梦想还有多遥远，或者会不会转弯：每一个向前迈出的步伐，我都要走得自信自在、问心无愧、没有遗憾。:)